I promise to not take my body for granted again

This is my promise to myself. And I’m writing it down, both in my journal and here, for anyone to read (and remind me of) so that I don’t forget that I made this promise.

First of all I will never take my body for granted because of what it is capable of. Of what it can fucking do, which is completely inhuman. Because my body created a life, a human being.

Second of all, because I realize now how much time I have spent taken my body for granted. Blaming it, mistreating it, hating it. Not any more. I will not allow it. I have always been lucky and some what healthy and “normal” weight no matter what I put my body through (I mean come on, at some point I should definitely have been over weight with how I treated my body) and it has kept strong through laziness.

I realize now, how much I have taken all these things for granted. The easy movement and flexibility, the flat stomach, the non swollen feet and legs. I also realize how awful I have been to it, both physically and mentally.

So from now on I will be grateful and treat my body with the respect it deserves. I will take care of it and I will cherish it. Not only am I grateful that I could get pregnant, and have a completely non problematic pregnancy, it’s is also going to give birth, and heal afterwards (I hope… haha)

I have noticed a significant difference in the diagnoses that I have, psoriasis, arthritis, migraines and IBS since taking better care of myself mentally. Just imagine how amazing I would feel if I also took better care of myself physically. And this pregnancy has given me that motivation, to not take my body for granted, to open my eyes to how truly amazing it actually is and to stop hating it, and being mean to it.

It’s time to let go of all the old grudges and love my body like it deserve to be loved and treat it like it deserves to be treated. I promise, not to take my body for granted again.

Gratitude

I am starting my week with gratitude. I have spent the last week walking around being impatient and stressed. And I am not saying that it will change any time soon, unless this baby decide to come… But I am changing my mindset today and focusing on gratitude.

In a lot of aspect of my life I am in between right now, and I do not like it, I don’t like being stuck, to not move forward and to not make things happen. It has been a valuable challenge though. And so I am deciding to shift my focus to gratitude.

I am grateful for so many things in my life, and when it’s hard to step out of the impatience, at least I can be impatient and grateful at the same time. I am so grateful for all the amazing things in my life, and all the amazing things that are coming. I am grateful for this time of having to slow down and calm my mind, even though it’s hard, it’s good for me. I am so grateful for this pregnancy and this baby, and for my fiance, our apartment and our dogs and living in Barcelona. I am grateful for my friends and my family and all the support they give me.

Gratitude is so important, cause what you focus on grows, so if you’re focus on being grateful for things you will most likely get more of the things you’re grateful for, just like you’ll get more of the negative things if that’s what you focus on.

So let’s be grateful today, my friends. For all the things that we have. Even though the wait for the things I don’t have yet is really, really tough.

Self Care with a baby

It’s so important to put yourself first. You can’t pour from an empty cup. So I have been thinking about that lately. How to keep up with my self care with a baby. It must be tough, but it must be possible.

It’s so important for my well being, my habits, to keep my routine. It’s important for my mental health and for my happiness. I’m guessing that I will fall out of it with a newborn but then I’m gonna have to find a way back, even if it might have to be a bit differently.

What are you opinions? Did you have a self care routine before having kids? How did kids effect that? How do you keep up with your self care as a mama? Let me know all your tips and all your challenges!

I am ready

I am ready. This in between is not working for me. I am too impatient. I have been pregnant enough now, it’s not just that I am sick of being pregnant, I’m just done, I’m ready for the next step. In my mind I am already planning for life with baby, I am making schedule, loosing baby weight, looking for a new place and so on. All those things that I can’t do right now, because I’m just waiting. I’m just sitting here, waiting.

I try to come up with all kinds of stuff to do, bake (I do not bake…), clean out my closet (still need the mama clothes). This is ridiculous. I do not like waiting. Especially for something that is probably not gonna be very fun. So I want to have it behind me, not ahead. I want to be done with it now.

I miss my stomach, I miss my clothes, I miss my non swollen feet and legs. I am ready, let’s get this show on the road baby.

So here’s what I’m doing. Me, who is so into mindset work and all that stuff, I am simply working on my child birth mindset. And it feels like it’s working. I just hit me, that I have so many techniques that I need to calm my mind. Breathing, and yes that does actually take practice. I am focusing all my energy on affirming thoughts instead of thinking about when and how it’s going to happen.

  • I am ready for this
  • Everything will be okay
  • My body is ready and made for this

And like all other affirming thoughts, you need to believe them at some level, and I do.

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Nesting syndrome

So it seemed like a very good idea to have everything done on time so that I could spend the last weeks relaxing. Ha ha ha. Boy was I wrong. So the paradox is that I would probably feel very stressed if I wasn’t done with all the preparations, but now that I am, I’m stressed about that. Cause there is nothing to do, there is nothing more to prepare, and I feel this huge need to do so. I wish I was a person who enjoyed knitting, or sewing, but I’m just not.

And this is not about not having anything to do, cause I do. But I feel this huge need to specifically prepare and organize for babys arrival, so I can’t occupy myself with just anything. The good thing is that with all this motivation I have been able to put a lot of energy into working on my business. But I still end up sitting there, having done all my stuff, and just feeling the need to fold something, or clean something, or order something, or organize something. What is happening to me? So is this what they call nesting syndrome? Well it is hitting me haaaard.

It has gotten so bad that when one of my dogs got sick all over the carpet in the baby room yesterday I actually felt pleasure in having something to do, scrubbing stains, dog vomit stains, seriously?

I have come to a point where I can actually see us with a baby. And it’s the craziest feeling. I think that’s where this need to do something comes from, cause I have already started feeling a whole new purpose, I’m just missing that one little thing to take care of. It’s not even that I’m longing for baby, it’s almost as if I miss her, even thought I’ve never had her. It’s like there is something missing.

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Or maybe I’m just going crazy, let me know what you think.
Did you experience this nesting syndrome?

Things I will not take for granted again

So pregnancy is beautiful and all that but not a super fun time for me even though I’m kind of spoiled with the lack of awful symptoms. But lately when I have gotten even bigger, and it has gotten even warmer, and everything has gotten more uncomfortable, I have been walking around thinking about things that I will never take for granted again. You know, kind of like you do when you have a really bad cold, sitt around thinking of how you will never take for granted not having a blocked nose, or being able to breathe properly.

So here’s my list.

  • Sneezing, laughing or coughing without having to worry about peeing myself. Now I realize that this might get even worse after giving birth. But I still wish I hadn’t taken it for granted before.
  • Non swollen feet and ankles. I even caught myself the other day zooming in on an old photo of myself where my ankles were showing, looking at how skinny and pretty they were. Ahhh the feeling of being able to walk properly.
  • Being able to wear all my shoes…. because of not having those swollen ankles and feet. My only choice now is flip flips. At least I got a pretty pair of flip flops. But still…
  • A flat stomach. I am so mad at myself for ever thinking that I had anything but a flat stomach. I had no idea, seriously. I can’t wait for the day I don’t have this huge bump in the middle of my body. And can wear normal clothes again.
  • Not having heart burn. I literally don’t know what it feels like anymore, to not have heart burn. And I will be forever grateful the day that I’m without and finally get to feel that sensation of not having a fire in my throat.
  • Being able to turn around without waking up during the night. Okay, ha ha, I’m having a baby, I’ll probably be woken up by a screaming baby instead. But at least I’ll be able to sleep comfortably when I do sleep.
  • Not having a great pain ahead. Yes giving birth is natural and will probably be fine. But seriously, it’s no fun walking around knowing that you will experience what people call the worst pain of their lives any moment now. It’s freckin’ scary.

Of course there is also a huge list of things that I will never take for granted like being able to get pregnant this easy. Having a great pregnancy health wise and not having to constantly worry about complications (even if that worry of course can be there anyway). And there will probably be a list of things again after the baby is here, that will make this one sound really ridiculous. But there you go. So if your not pregnant, take a moment and appreciate being skinny (cause yes you are), flexible, not having to worry about peeing yourself, living without heart burn and not having god knows how many hours of excruciating pain ahead. I’m happy for you guys!

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What did you not love about being pregnant?
And what do you miss about being pregnant?

Pregnancy photo shoot

We did a pregnancy photo shoot the other day. I was going back and forth about weather or not I wanted to actually do it the closer it got. When feeling big and uncomfortable, taking a bunch of photos isn’t really your version of a fun time. But we decided to do it anyway. One of the reasons being that we figured we’d just regret it if we didn’t, and the other being that we did our engagement photos with the same photographer, and we loved those photos, so the chances of us loving these photos, and also being comfortable during the photo shoot was quite big.

And it was great, I mean it is awkward of course, to do staged photos of you and your partner involving a huge stomach with a baby in it. But it was good and it felt like we got some good photos after all. It was a good time and I was excited to see the photos.

And rightfully so. We got the photos back today and they are amazing. I’m so happy we did it after all. Even if I felt huge and uncomfortable she managed to make me look great. We got some wonderful photos together, from this pregnancy and with the pups as well. I couldn’t be happier. So if you’re in Barcelona and you wanna do engagement photos or pregnancy photos or what ever photos, you know where to go. https://delphinegidoinphotography.com/