So it seemed like a very good idea to have everything done on time so that I could spend the last weeks relaxing. Ha ha ha. Boy was I wrong. So the paradox is that I would probably feel very stressed if I wasn’t done with all the preparations, but now that I am, I’m stressed about that. Cause there is nothing to do, there is nothing more to prepare, and I feel this huge need to do so. I wish I was a person who enjoyed knitting, or sewing, but I’m just not.
And this is not about not having anything to do, cause I do. But I feel this huge need to specifically prepare and organize for babys arrival, so I can’t occupy myself with just anything. The good thing is that with all this motivation I have been able to put a lot of energy into working on my business. But I still end up sitting there, having done all my stuff, and just feeling the need to fold something, or clean something, or order something, or organize something. What is happening to me? So is this what they call nesting syndrome? Well it is hitting me haaaard.
It has gotten so bad that when one of my dogs got sick all over the carpet in the baby room yesterday I actually felt pleasure in having something to do, scrubbing stains, dog vomit stains, seriously?
I have come to a point where I can actually see us with a baby. And it’s the craziest feeling. I think that’s where this need to do something comes from, cause I have already started feeling a whole new purpose, I’m just missing that one little thing to take care of. It’s not even that I’m longing for baby, it’s almost as if I miss her, even thought I’ve never had her. It’s like there is something missing.
Or maybe I’m just going crazy, let me know what you think.
Did you experience this nesting syndrome?