Today it’s mother’s day in some places, Sweden being one of them. Unfortunately since I’m living in Spain and being away for an event I’m not spending this day with my mum. I am however feeling a bit emotional on a day like this, it being my first (almost) mother’s day or should I say the last one without actually being a mother. I guess it depends on how you look at it. I definitely do not feel like a mother yet and I guess I won’t until the day she decides it’s time to arrive.
I have so many goals and aspirations about being a mother. I am also scared and nervous. But I’m mostly excited, cause to be honest (about to step outside the norm here and own my confidence), I think I will be good at it. I do have a lot of growing left to do (ha-ha). I have not reach everything I want to reach or created the life I want for myself and my family yet. But I’m owning my life, I am chasing my dreams, I am believing in myself. I believe myself to be strong, empowering, smart and stubborn. I have always gone my own way and stood up for myself and others. I am a hell of a friend, a great sister, daughter and fiancé mostly, I think, because I always give all of me, all of the real me. I see the best in people and strive to become the best version of myself and I know that I will succeed and have my dreams come true cause I do not quit.
So that was a little different, ha? Don’t you think we should all own up a bit more to what we are actually good at? What is actually great about us? I feel like I have this confidence within me and a trust in myself but that the society have taught me that you shouldn’t give yourself too much credit, you shouldn’t talk yourself up too much. And while you should definitely not let your ego get so big you think you have nothing left to learn, you should affirm yourself and tell yourself that you are f’king great when you are.
I also have a lot of trust in my ability for motherhood because I grew up with a phenomenal mother. She was natural from the start, just meant to be a mother. She is strong, stubborn, strong-willed and so honest she couldn’t hide her opinion about something or someone even if she tried. She is also soft, kind, supportive, smart and welcomes people she likes and loves with open arms and gives them all she’s got.
I can’t wait to be a mum, and I can’t wait to hug mine the next time I see her. Happy mother’s day my fabulous mum, I love you more than words can say.